One Among Many

Today is another big day, but before I start that discussion let me update you all.

Tuesday the 10th, we had an appointment scheduled in order to have a semen analysis done. We traveled to REACH, checked in, and was immediately able to go to the lab. Here, we were taken to a small area off the sitting room to sign some documents, where my husband had to initial his labels for the sample to be collected. These labels were applied to our forms and also to our cup. We were then able to pick a room and get started. This was the most awkward moment I have had in my entire life! How are you suppose to feel while trying to get your husband off in a very tiny, small room with 1980's pornos and Playboy magazines that absolutely suck?! The atmosphere did not exactly put either of us in the mood so we had to tough it out. Pretending this task was one of our dying wishes or fantasies was the only way to trudge through this debacle. So instead of going to medical school for the PA program, I instantly became a sexy MD and worked as a "doctor" for a day! : ) Knowing the importance of the sample urged us forward too. Hmmm, I am wondering could this already be counted as a sacrifice for our children? Ha ha ha! This experience was very interesting and one that I will never forget!

Yesterday around 4 pm, I received a call from REACH about our results. One of our nurses, Mary, wanted to schedule us an appointment for this Friday to talk about the results. Once again my heart stopped and I could not breathe. I hate receiving calls like this and getting no hint or indications on whether the discussion will be good or bad. Her tone conveyed that perhaps the news will be bad news. Since we are going on our cruise, we had to schedule the appointment on the 31st, which is a whole 19 days away!! Ah the anticipation is going to kill me. I will worry, worry, and worry some more on our vacation. I almost wish I had not answered that call. I wish I had ignored it, but I know that would not have gotten us anywhere. It is so ironic that I can be a warrior at one moment and a scared little girl the next. I guess it is true, I am a jelly bean just like my husband likes to call me. I am hard on the outside, but once my shell is penetrated I am so soft on the inside. Yes, we will have to wait unfortunately to get the results, but when we do receive them, I will make sure I share!

Anyways, on a more exciting note, this day is one among many! A very special day where new adventures begin. Today we will head to Miami, FL for our cruise that sails on Saturday the 14th (our 2 year wedding anniversary yay!). I can not tell you all how excited, happy, joyous, anxious that I am. Though I love to travel, it seems like I rarely take vacations, so I am looking forward to this much needed retreat full of relaxation.  I can not wait to see the ocean. I love the ocean and water in general. I am your average swimmer, but I love the sights of huge bodies of water. They seem edgeless, limitless, are mysterious, and full of wonder. I could not imagine myself going deep into the ocean because of the heavy, deep darkness, but I love seeing the images of deep sea diving. I also look forward to exploring Miami and seeing what all this city has to offer. On the cruise ship, I look forward to the food the most. I love to eat!! I can not wait to play bingo and explore Ocho Rios, Jamaica and the Grand Cayman Islands with my family. Overall, I know this trip and these days will be one among many joyous days. Surrounding yourself with love, family, and good times helps you to keep going. I plan to do that and much more!

~Until next time